What have the years give you, dear? Two before a quarter century, and I see you grow up seizing days after days. You grew stronger, and stubborn more. You have accomplished so much more than what I have in my own time. Proud and still starving for more.
I am sorry for not being able to write you exactly at your birthday. My energy has been, quite simply, siphoned by works. In your sleeping hour I tried to write last sentences, but the night was late and sleepy, and tranquil yet, because you were there, and I couldn't bring myself to write. Watching you fell asleep silently, veiled by the red wine sky, was more beautiful deed than all.
I'm sorry that I don't understand (yet) about your hunger; that in satiating your passions you're willing to sacrifice everything else. Past few weeks have we spent arguing, debating, being passive-aggressive toward each other, and I still don't understand. We are a ship and it was just a rough sea. And I am - or we are - still learning how to sail and tame the torrential rains and surging waves that may come.
I was never mad because you put me in any arbitrary number lower than what you'd give for your work. But I was mad that you'd even give up yourself - especially your health - to your job. It pained me to see you slaved by your job, because in you I see my own enslavement. I was weary, but not because I demand more of your priority. I was weary
seeing you work really hard, almost too hard, almost as if that your
very existence is tied to what you give to the altar of corporate gods.
Waking up checking emails on your phone, eating lunch with your laptop,
having dinner with your working papers, and the cycle repeats itself. Almost a ritual. You dash forward, running to be successful, ignoring
your family, ignoring me, even ignoring yourself in the process. But then again, you are a bristlecone pine that can only thrive in harsh winters and hard soils. I will support you, and be proud of you.
And there's so many to remember, easily exceeds 23 things about you. Ramblings, discussions at the table, every words, every hugs, every little fights, every thoughts, every quirks, every accomplishments and disappointments. There's so much memories about you, becoming a path for me to return home. You don't need my writing to tell you how many wonders you've done in your life. In my life. You are a grace I dare not ask for. You are a miracle I dare not pray for.
You once asked me of how will forever be. Forever is too strong of a word. An impossibility. So now let me love you. Let me love you even when I hate you, even when you hate me, even when the smog of this city has taken away our radiance. Because love is the forever becoming the temporal.
Finally, happy birthday, N. May the wisdom guide you through the dark years and the light years.
Happy birthday, N. And may we grow old together.
Friday, October 3, 2014
Thursday, September 11, 2014
Two Faces
Everything was well according to the plan: going to Pasar Santa again, having lunch in its wet section, buying used books (and Dusty Sneakers' new book!) in POST, then watching a students chamber orchestra concert. Everything was even better seen in retrospect: to be able to chat and to mock cheesy soap operas with the jocular wet market tenants, also to be able to snatch awesome classic books in cheap prices. The orchestra was good, too, albeit with some tiny, tiny disturbances. One contra bass player's chair was squeaky, the clash cymbals' sound was no longer crisp, and one cello had its strings slapped the fingerboard, producing "flappy" sounds. I'm not an expert in classical music or symphonic orchestra. Hell, I'm not an expert on anything. So they were not a big deal because the rest of the day was too delightful to fuss about small things.
What's not in the plan was this one event, the second anniversary of a reading community in Taman Menteng - a community I was just made aware of by Teddy. (And again, Nitha laughed at my cluelessness about it.) The other option after the orchestra was to watch Guardians of the Galaxy, but why watch something that you can watch later - either legally or illegally?
So off we went, after grabbing a dinner and feeling a little bit posh about ourselves.
The community literally named itself Komunitas Baca-baca di Taman (KBBT). Unlike its straightforward name, its history is rather murky for me. Teddy said that it was initiated by some ex-punk heads there. They ditched their old lives, collected some books, and invited gamins to read every Saturday night. The first three meetings were held in Bundaran HI. They switched place to Taman Menteng because it's quieter, it has more trees, and it's less polluted here, unlike the traffic-heavy Bundaran HI. The community then got bigger and attracted the non-members or everyone who happened to be there to sit and read with them. They make events with tongue-in-cheek acronyms: BiR (beer) that stands for Bincang Ringan (small talk), KuDeTa (coup d'etat) that stands for Kumpul dengan Teman (gathering with friends), and a discussion session called MiRas (liquor) that stands for Mikir Keras (thinking hard).
When Nitha and I arrived, the anniversary celebration had not started.
"Let's play swings!" she asked me. I obliged.
We walked to the northern part of Taman Menteng where the swings located. I laid my eyes to the pyramidal glass house. I've been told that KBBT usually takes place in front of it, so it's likely that their anniversary was there, too. But still, there were not so much activities in its vicinity. Amidst the couples on Saturday night dates, parents bringing their kids to play in the sandbox, cigarette-and-instant-drink-mix sellers on bikes, and some teenagers playing futsal, the glass house shone brightly, illuminated the park and its dwellers. From afar, where I sat on my swing set, it looked like the third world version of Louvre pyramid.
Taman Menteng was previously Menteng Stadium, a football stadium belonged to Persija Jakarta. In 2004, under Sutiyoso's administration, it was planned to be converted to be a park (the plan allegedly date back even further, during Surjadi Soedirdja's administration). It was very controversial. Some individuals in PSSI reacted with disdain. It even almost led to a conflict that almost disband Persija. 30 billion rupiah and almost 3 years later, it was finally open to public as a park.
Ten minutes passed. I said to Nitha, "I think they are getting started. Let's go there."
And there they were. There was this modest make-do stage in front of the glass house, on the side adjacent to Jl. H. O. S. Cokroaminoto. One man, wearing striped T-shirt and three-quarter jeans, played two-piece drum kit. The other man, a middle-aged man with glass, played guitar. He dressed in white Tshirt with batik scarf around his neck, singing some folks songs. A banner in black color is tied in trees. It said happy 2nd anniversary, signed "KBBT - Komazine". There were two other stand banners in white, beside those two guys playing music. One showed KBBT's motto: "Mau Pintar Kenapa Musti Bayar?" (why must you pay if you want to be smart?). The other: "Bawa Buku Buka dan Baca di Taman" (bring books, open and read them in the park); complete with a cartoon of bourgeoisie-looking giant boar in suits and top hat, reading book while stepping on the protesting humans to death. Red stars and the anarchists' Circle-As adorned both banners. KBBT is apparently a redemption, an educative facility for street people, a society of sharing, and a protest to despondent government all at once.
The books were laid on a mat on the terrace of glass house. We looked around. Most of the ones who came wore black T-shirts. The books were mostly Pramoedya Ananta Toer's. And surprisingly, the collection was very extensive. There were Mangir, Larasati, Arus Balik, Nyanyi Sunyi Seorang Bisu, Perempuan dalam Cengkeraman Militer, Arok Dedes, Calon Arang, and of course, Buru Tetralogy. Among Pramoedya's books, there were several editions of zine titled Komazine scattered.
We spoke to a man who introduced himself as Uu'. His face, his long hair, and his stature reminded me of Indonesian young philosopher, Martin Suryajaya. Not that I actually ever met Martin, but his resemblance was quite conspicuous. He manages both KBBT and Komazine. He is Komazine's all-around writer, layouter, editor, and illustrator.
Komazine is an alternative zine with strong left political leaning. The name was derived from "koma" (coma), which according to them is the most apt depiction to describe this nation: in limbo, coma, neither life nor dead. Its life force has been sucked by the corporates and the corrupt governments, leaving next to nothing to the common folks. Komazine is even older than KBBT. When KBBT was born in September 1st 2012, Komazine already issued its 11th edition. It has 16 issues to date.
"How often is it usually published?"
"It's not regular. We publish it when we're able to publish. The next edition, for instance, will have to be pushed back to October due to some problems."
I held one in my hand. It dated July 2009.
Visually coarse and crudely illustrated, Komazine hosts works and writings from Uu' and his friends. There are writings about social protests, critics to government, propaganda against capitalism. There are also poems and caricatures. And what excited me somehow were the writings about Marx and Bakunin. With all the limitations these people in Komazine have, be it educations, budgets, and literature references, they succeeded in transforming themselves into political educators for other people. This autodidact, guerrilla education is very, very admirable.
I asked if I can buy this one.
"Well, I didn't bring copies with me. If you want that one we can make you a copy. We have Twitter account. Mention us the issue you want and next week we'll bring it to you."
"Do you have the one that is for sale?"
I grabbed three issues. The young man besides me took one.
"So, how do you know Teddy?" I asked.
"Oh, he just came here one night. And we just 'clicked'"
"He was with Maesy?"
"Oh, the lady? Yeah. She couldn't stand near here, though. She had trouble breathing. Those dudes were smoking. I wasn't. I don't smoke."
"She has asthma."
Beside being used to finance its future edition, the sales of Komazine are used to fund the maintenance of KBBT's books.
"Are you not afraid if these Pramoedya books are borrowed but not returned?"
"No. We have a strict policy regarding this kind of books. It must be returned in the same day."
Nitha then asked, "What happens if it rains?"
"Oh, we're gonna save the books first. We'll wrap them, make sure they're not wet. Don't care if we are soaked by the rain."
The guys playing drum and guitar "stepped down". The birthday party was about to begin. To my surprise, one relatively new TV station also came to report. After asking Uu' for interview and for taping the event, the crew asked me and Nitha to be interviewed. Both of us declined. Nitha said to me that it's very typical for a TV station to find the photogenic ones. Apparently my blob-like appearance was camera-friendly.
"Okay, we're kinda late actually," says the MC, "most of us have gathered anyway. So let us begin!"
Like the books, the stage and its music equipments were collective good. Several people took the stage alternately. Some sang Iwan Fals songs. Some sang their own song bearing the same message of protest to government, support for the labors, and demand for social justice.
One reminded us about capitalism: "The capital is only owned by a few people!"
"Go back to Article 33!" sang one. Article 33 of Indonesian constitution is about social welfare: common endeavor based on kinship principle, ownership of sectors of production which are important for the country and affect the life of the people by the country, and utilization of Indonesian lands, waters, and natural resources contained therein for the greatest benefit of the people. The song conveyed the restlessness of the common folks seeing this nation's resources being exploited for the interests of corporates and foreign countries instead of its own people.
Mbak Tari, one of the performers that night yelled at the end of her song, "The women must fight!"
"The women must fight!" cheered the crowds back.
Socialism, feminism, anti-imperialism. What's not to like here?
One man, said to be the "director" of KBBT then gave his speech. He explained the manifesto of KBBT and its "Mau Pintar Kenapa Musti Bayar?" maxim. He said, our education has failed. He said, our education has been commodified and capitalized. He said that our government is apathetic about education, even more to the marginalized masses.
"Makan sekolahan gak bikin pinter!" (School doesn't make you smart!)
"Ya iya lah. Makan sekolah gimana bikin pinter? Makan apa lo? Bangkunya?" (Of course. How can eating school make you smart? What do you eat anyway? Its bench?) The man in batik scarf took the literal meaning of "makan" (eating) to heckle the "director." The crowds burst in cachinnations.
"Makan buku, lah!" (reading book, of course!)
"Buku apa? Buku nikah?" (what book? Marriage book?) said another. Another hearty laughter.
"Marriage has been commodified by the country!" said the batik scarf man.
"Marriage is a legalized adultery!" I said without thinking.
He conclude that KBBT is here to take back public space for public use. For better use.
"The public place is ours too!"
Next performers was Petruk. He recited one of Heri Latief's poems. After him, Uu' came to the stage and read Latief's poem from the very same book Petruk just read. I admire this community more. We live in a short-attention-span generation; the age where its youths fetishize gadgets and pop stars. This is the age where posting something on Facebook or Path is trendy, and poetry and philosophy are considered vain exercises. In the age where the refusal to learn is epidemic, who knows that our one of the beacons of classical education is in here, in this small park every Saturday night?
"The stage is all yours! If you want to perform anything, perform!"
The event continued.
"Wiro! C'mon, Wiro!"
Then one group consisting of one girl and two guys. One of them - the one wearing AC/DC T-shirt - I presumed was Wiro. They took the stage and began singing Serenada from Steven and the Coconut Treez.
Nitha and I sat on the floor. We were offered some snacks, boiled cassava, boiled banana, and oranges.
"No, thanks. We've just eaten."
I took an orange. And in a very socialistic manner, Nitha offered her Cha Cha. Some people took and shared it.
The man in batik scarf sat down near us. He introduced himself as Cibal, a member of Komunitas Kretek, a cigarette appreciation community..
"So do you know Mas Puthut?"
"Of course! We had coffee last week."
"Do you know Iqbal? Iqbal Aji Daryono?" Nitha asked.
"Yes! Do you study in Jogja?"
"Naah, I'm not. She is. In UGM."
The MC shouted, "Next, came far away from Tegal, he's gonna read a poem!" His name was Deni or Dani, I can't remember.
I whispered to Nitha, "He came far away from Tegal just to be here? Wow."
"No, you fool. He's probably from Tegal and has stay long in Jakarta." She laughed at my naivete.
Then we traded stories about our mutual friends, about Klinik Kopi in Jogja, about Komunitas Kretek and its Ekspedisi Cengkeh project, about how attractive clover was in Age of Discovery, about Magellan and Columbus.
"KomTek is not a cigarette lobbyist group. We're not from industry side. We are an appreciation group. Every May 31st, on World No Tobacco Day, we make tweets with #TerimakasihTembakau hashtag, providing counter-narrative," Mas Cibal narrated.
He then added, "KomTek Jakarta usually gather in Tebet. Do come sometime."
"I will come some time."
He went and chatted with other people. At one moment he teased a man who brought his Caucasian friend, "I love national products, not imported ones!"
They all laughed boisterously, except the Caucasian. The joke was lost in translation perhaps.
The musics then shifted from reggae to slow rock to bluesy-folk interchangeably. Most of them were their own songs, and the message about struggle remained the same. Two faces of music I listened that day. One was the classic that - while aurally sophisticated - was devoid from any resistance elements. It was pure art. The other one was unyielding voice of the working class. It was pure moving force. And I enjoyed both.
I looked again at the stage, at this camaraderie, at the grass root socialism in action. They have been down the street, joining the rally for the labors in Mayday. They even walked to Russian ambassador, campaigning for Pussy Riot to be released. Then I wondered whether our intellectual left ever embraced them. I never studied Marxism extensively, and I know that our lighthouse of the left in Indoprogress are doing very great jobs, but it itches me that our revolutionary movement has two faces. What can this writing, for instance, support our comrades in Komazine? It's too complicated, too abstruse, too pretentious to relate even for me, and especially for them. Mr. Ali Sastro beats me to it in his critic here. I dream that one day both of them can have discussions together. I dream that they can solidify our educational movements together instead of patronizing, or worse, becoming a left hegemony (which is an oxymoron).
For about 15 years, with not more than four people (Vasily Ignatov, Vera Zasulich, Leo Deutsch, and Pavel Axelrod), Georgi Plekhanov's early works were dedicated to write, to theorize, to polemicize, and to translate Marxist works into Russian. It was almost unheard, and it was not without critics, too. He was accused to divorce Marxism from its mass acts. But without his writings - as Ted Sprague from Militan once said - perhaps there would be no Trotsky, no Lenin, and no October 1917 Revolution. Building the intellectual and theoretical building blocks is of course necessary for a revolution in a country, especially if Marxism is still in infancy there. Without theories, a mass acts will be a bunch of reactionary agent provocateurs incapable of rhetoric, shaky in its ideology. And I am guilty of it, particularly in last presidential election. Frankly, in a hindsight, it distressed me to vote for a president whom I am actually sure that he will speak in a neoliberalese language, instead of obdurately staying in principle. But both Komazine and Indoprogress are both basically trying to educate the masses. Political education is difficult, but writing something perplexing and out-of-touch with proletarian life is not going to make it easier either. Maybe in this I am patronizing, too, but I believe that Komazine can use some supports from good folks from Indoprogress.
Uu' said the celebration would be all night long. Meanwhile, my friend chatted me to come over to Jalan Sabang and have some coffee. I asked Nitha if she's okay to have some coffee. She said yes.
Mas Cibal said, "There's this one good coffee in Cikini called Kopi Tahlil. Pekalongan style. It's made with nine spices. Nine! It's across Holland Bakery."
"Nice! Thanks for the suggestion. Will go sometimes." We excused ourselves to leave early.
I said to Nitha while we were walking to the parking lot, "I'm happy."
"I'm happy too," she replied while smiling, "I'm happy knowing that you have something exciting to do while I'm out of town for two weeks."
I will make sure bringing books next time.
What's not in the plan was this one event, the second anniversary of a reading community in Taman Menteng - a community I was just made aware of by Teddy. (And again, Nitha laughed at my cluelessness about it.) The other option after the orchestra was to watch Guardians of the Galaxy, but why watch something that you can watch later - either legally or illegally?
So off we went, after grabbing a dinner and feeling a little bit posh about ourselves.
The community literally named itself Komunitas Baca-baca di Taman (KBBT). Unlike its straightforward name, its history is rather murky for me. Teddy said that it was initiated by some ex-punk heads there. They ditched their old lives, collected some books, and invited gamins to read every Saturday night. The first three meetings were held in Bundaran HI. They switched place to Taman Menteng because it's quieter, it has more trees, and it's less polluted here, unlike the traffic-heavy Bundaran HI. The community then got bigger and attracted the non-members or everyone who happened to be there to sit and read with them. They make events with tongue-in-cheek acronyms: BiR (beer) that stands for Bincang Ringan (small talk), KuDeTa (coup d'etat) that stands for Kumpul dengan Teman (gathering with friends), and a discussion session called MiRas (liquor) that stands for Mikir Keras (thinking hard).
When Nitha and I arrived, the anniversary celebration had not started.
"Let's play swings!" she asked me. I obliged.
We walked to the northern part of Taman Menteng where the swings located. I laid my eyes to the pyramidal glass house. I've been told that KBBT usually takes place in front of it, so it's likely that their anniversary was there, too. But still, there were not so much activities in its vicinity. Amidst the couples on Saturday night dates, parents bringing their kids to play in the sandbox, cigarette-and-instant-drink-mix sellers on bikes, and some teenagers playing futsal, the glass house shone brightly, illuminated the park and its dwellers. From afar, where I sat on my swing set, it looked like the third world version of Louvre pyramid.
Taman Menteng was previously Menteng Stadium, a football stadium belonged to Persija Jakarta. In 2004, under Sutiyoso's administration, it was planned to be converted to be a park (the plan allegedly date back even further, during Surjadi Soedirdja's administration). It was very controversial. Some individuals in PSSI reacted with disdain. It even almost led to a conflict that almost disband Persija. 30 billion rupiah and almost 3 years later, it was finally open to public as a park.
Ten minutes passed. I said to Nitha, "I think they are getting started. Let's go there."
And there they were. There was this modest make-do stage in front of the glass house, on the side adjacent to Jl. H. O. S. Cokroaminoto. One man, wearing striped T-shirt and three-quarter jeans, played two-piece drum kit. The other man, a middle-aged man with glass, played guitar. He dressed in white Tshirt with batik scarf around his neck, singing some folks songs. A banner in black color is tied in trees. It said happy 2nd anniversary, signed "KBBT - Komazine". There were two other stand banners in white, beside those two guys playing music. One showed KBBT's motto: "Mau Pintar Kenapa Musti Bayar?" (why must you pay if you want to be smart?). The other: "Bawa Buku Buka dan Baca di Taman" (bring books, open and read them in the park); complete with a cartoon of bourgeoisie-looking giant boar in suits and top hat, reading book while stepping on the protesting humans to death. Red stars and the anarchists' Circle-As adorned both banners. KBBT is apparently a redemption, an educative facility for street people, a society of sharing, and a protest to despondent government all at once.
The books were laid on a mat on the terrace of glass house. We looked around. Most of the ones who came wore black T-shirts. The books were mostly Pramoedya Ananta Toer's. And surprisingly, the collection was very extensive. There were Mangir, Larasati, Arus Balik, Nyanyi Sunyi Seorang Bisu, Perempuan dalam Cengkeraman Militer, Arok Dedes, Calon Arang, and of course, Buru Tetralogy. Among Pramoedya's books, there were several editions of zine titled Komazine scattered.
We spoke to a man who introduced himself as Uu'. His face, his long hair, and his stature reminded me of Indonesian young philosopher, Martin Suryajaya. Not that I actually ever met Martin, but his resemblance was quite conspicuous. He manages both KBBT and Komazine. He is Komazine's all-around writer, layouter, editor, and illustrator.
Komazine is an alternative zine with strong left political leaning. The name was derived from "koma" (coma), which according to them is the most apt depiction to describe this nation: in limbo, coma, neither life nor dead. Its life force has been sucked by the corporates and the corrupt governments, leaving next to nothing to the common folks. Komazine is even older than KBBT. When KBBT was born in September 1st 2012, Komazine already issued its 11th edition. It has 16 issues to date.
"How often is it usually published?"
"It's not regular. We publish it when we're able to publish. The next edition, for instance, will have to be pushed back to October due to some problems."
I held one in my hand. It dated July 2009.
Visually coarse and crudely illustrated, Komazine hosts works and writings from Uu' and his friends. There are writings about social protests, critics to government, propaganda against capitalism. There are also poems and caricatures. And what excited me somehow were the writings about Marx and Bakunin. With all the limitations these people in Komazine have, be it educations, budgets, and literature references, they succeeded in transforming themselves into political educators for other people. This autodidact, guerrilla education is very, very admirable.
I asked if I can buy this one.
"Well, I didn't bring copies with me. If you want that one we can make you a copy. We have Twitter account. Mention us the issue you want and next week we'll bring it to you."
"Do you have the one that is for sale?"
I grabbed three issues. The young man besides me took one.
"So, how do you know Teddy?" I asked.
"Oh, he just came here one night. And we just 'clicked'"
"He was with Maesy?"
"Oh, the lady? Yeah. She couldn't stand near here, though. She had trouble breathing. Those dudes were smoking. I wasn't. I don't smoke."
"She has asthma."
Beside being used to finance its future edition, the sales of Komazine are used to fund the maintenance of KBBT's books.
"Are you not afraid if these Pramoedya books are borrowed but not returned?"
"No. We have a strict policy regarding this kind of books. It must be returned in the same day."
Nitha then asked, "What happens if it rains?"
"Oh, we're gonna save the books first. We'll wrap them, make sure they're not wet. Don't care if we are soaked by the rain."
The guys playing drum and guitar "stepped down". The birthday party was about to begin. To my surprise, one relatively new TV station also came to report. After asking Uu' for interview and for taping the event, the crew asked me and Nitha to be interviewed. Both of us declined. Nitha said to me that it's very typical for a TV station to find the photogenic ones. Apparently my blob-like appearance was camera-friendly.
"Okay, we're kinda late actually," says the MC, "most of us have gathered anyway. So let us begin!"
Like the books, the stage and its music equipments were collective good. Several people took the stage alternately. Some sang Iwan Fals songs. Some sang their own song bearing the same message of protest to government, support for the labors, and demand for social justice.
One reminded us about capitalism: "The capital is only owned by a few people!"
"Go back to Article 33!" sang one. Article 33 of Indonesian constitution is about social welfare: common endeavor based on kinship principle, ownership of sectors of production which are important for the country and affect the life of the people by the country, and utilization of Indonesian lands, waters, and natural resources contained therein for the greatest benefit of the people. The song conveyed the restlessness of the common folks seeing this nation's resources being exploited for the interests of corporates and foreign countries instead of its own people.
Mbak Tari, one of the performers that night yelled at the end of her song, "The women must fight!"
"The women must fight!" cheered the crowds back.
Socialism, feminism, anti-imperialism. What's not to like here?
One man, said to be the "director" of KBBT then gave his speech. He explained the manifesto of KBBT and its "Mau Pintar Kenapa Musti Bayar?" maxim. He said, our education has failed. He said, our education has been commodified and capitalized. He said that our government is apathetic about education, even more to the marginalized masses.
"Makan sekolahan gak bikin pinter!" (School doesn't make you smart!)
"Ya iya lah. Makan sekolah gimana bikin pinter? Makan apa lo? Bangkunya?" (Of course. How can eating school make you smart? What do you eat anyway? Its bench?) The man in batik scarf took the literal meaning of "makan" (eating) to heckle the "director." The crowds burst in cachinnations.
"Makan buku, lah!" (reading book, of course!)
"Buku apa? Buku nikah?" (what book? Marriage book?) said another. Another hearty laughter.
"Marriage has been commodified by the country!" said the batik scarf man.
"Marriage is a legalized adultery!" I said without thinking.
He conclude that KBBT is here to take back public space for public use. For better use.
"The public place is ours too!"
Next performers was Petruk. He recited one of Heri Latief's poems. After him, Uu' came to the stage and read Latief's poem from the very same book Petruk just read. I admire this community more. We live in a short-attention-span generation; the age where its youths fetishize gadgets and pop stars. This is the age where posting something on Facebook or Path is trendy, and poetry and philosophy are considered vain exercises. In the age where the refusal to learn is epidemic, who knows that our one of the beacons of classical education is in here, in this small park every Saturday night?
"The stage is all yours! If you want to perform anything, perform!"
The event continued.
"Wiro! C'mon, Wiro!"
Then one group consisting of one girl and two guys. One of them - the one wearing AC/DC T-shirt - I presumed was Wiro. They took the stage and began singing Serenada from Steven and the Coconut Treez.
Nitha and I sat on the floor. We were offered some snacks, boiled cassava, boiled banana, and oranges.
"No, thanks. We've just eaten."
I took an orange. And in a very socialistic manner, Nitha offered her Cha Cha. Some people took and shared it.
The man in batik scarf sat down near us. He introduced himself as Cibal, a member of Komunitas Kretek, a cigarette appreciation community..
"So do you know Mas Puthut?"
"Of course! We had coffee last week."
"Do you know Iqbal? Iqbal Aji Daryono?" Nitha asked.
"Yes! Do you study in Jogja?"
"Naah, I'm not. She is. In UGM."
The MC shouted, "Next, came far away from Tegal, he's gonna read a poem!" His name was Deni or Dani, I can't remember.
I whispered to Nitha, "He came far away from Tegal just to be here? Wow."
"No, you fool. He's probably from Tegal and has stay long in Jakarta." She laughed at my naivete.
Then we traded stories about our mutual friends, about Klinik Kopi in Jogja, about Komunitas Kretek and its Ekspedisi Cengkeh project, about how attractive clover was in Age of Discovery, about Magellan and Columbus.
"KomTek is not a cigarette lobbyist group. We're not from industry side. We are an appreciation group. Every May 31st, on World No Tobacco Day, we make tweets with #TerimakasihTembakau hashtag, providing counter-narrative," Mas Cibal narrated.
He then added, "KomTek Jakarta usually gather in Tebet. Do come sometime."
"I will come some time."
He went and chatted with other people. At one moment he teased a man who brought his Caucasian friend, "I love national products, not imported ones!"
They all laughed boisterously, except the Caucasian. The joke was lost in translation perhaps.
The musics then shifted from reggae to slow rock to bluesy-folk interchangeably. Most of them were their own songs, and the message about struggle remained the same. Two faces of music I listened that day. One was the classic that - while aurally sophisticated - was devoid from any resistance elements. It was pure art. The other one was unyielding voice of the working class. It was pure moving force. And I enjoyed both.
I looked again at the stage, at this camaraderie, at the grass root socialism in action. They have been down the street, joining the rally for the labors in Mayday. They even walked to Russian ambassador, campaigning for Pussy Riot to be released. Then I wondered whether our intellectual left ever embraced them. I never studied Marxism extensively, and I know that our lighthouse of the left in Indoprogress are doing very great jobs, but it itches me that our revolutionary movement has two faces. What can this writing, for instance, support our comrades in Komazine? It's too complicated, too abstruse, too pretentious to relate even for me, and especially for them. Mr. Ali Sastro beats me to it in his critic here. I dream that one day both of them can have discussions together. I dream that they can solidify our educational movements together instead of patronizing, or worse, becoming a left hegemony (which is an oxymoron).
For about 15 years, with not more than four people (Vasily Ignatov, Vera Zasulich, Leo Deutsch, and Pavel Axelrod), Georgi Plekhanov's early works were dedicated to write, to theorize, to polemicize, and to translate Marxist works into Russian. It was almost unheard, and it was not without critics, too. He was accused to divorce Marxism from its mass acts. But without his writings - as Ted Sprague from Militan once said - perhaps there would be no Trotsky, no Lenin, and no October 1917 Revolution. Building the intellectual and theoretical building blocks is of course necessary for a revolution in a country, especially if Marxism is still in infancy there. Without theories, a mass acts will be a bunch of reactionary agent provocateurs incapable of rhetoric, shaky in its ideology. And I am guilty of it, particularly in last presidential election. Frankly, in a hindsight, it distressed me to vote for a president whom I am actually sure that he will speak in a neoliberalese language, instead of obdurately staying in principle. But both Komazine and Indoprogress are both basically trying to educate the masses. Political education is difficult, but writing something perplexing and out-of-touch with proletarian life is not going to make it easier either. Maybe in this I am patronizing, too, but I believe that Komazine can use some supports from good folks from Indoprogress.
Uu' said the celebration would be all night long. Meanwhile, my friend chatted me to come over to Jalan Sabang and have some coffee. I asked Nitha if she's okay to have some coffee. She said yes.
Mas Cibal said, "There's this one good coffee in Cikini called Kopi Tahlil. Pekalongan style. It's made with nine spices. Nine! It's across Holland Bakery."
"Nice! Thanks for the suggestion. Will go sometimes." We excused ourselves to leave early.
I said to Nitha while we were walking to the parking lot, "I'm happy."
"I'm happy too," she replied while smiling, "I'm happy knowing that you have something exciting to do while I'm out of town for two weeks."
I will make sure bringing books next time.
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
A Weekend in the Market
His name is Teddy, and he's one of the most extraordinary man I've ever met. He is my senior from perhaps the most boring college in this country, which is made to supply fresh kids for the most boring jobs in this country. But he is not boring, far from it. He was debating champion, he quit from his governmental job to work in Save the Children and now World Bank(!), and he's one of the most prominent voices of travel writing/travel blogging in Indonesia. Using the moniker Twosocks (perhaps a nod to Kevin Costner's film), he started the travel blog The Dusty Sneakers with Maesy, his wife, who uses the nom de plume Gypsytoes on herself. They immerse themselves in every journey, they feel, they touch the places' history and their people, not only to indulge in sensory perceptions. And such is their trademark, to write story, not some paltry tips or pretty pictures. When my bro, Gita Wiryawan, protested Kompas for not putting Lord Nuran Wibisono in their list of the most interesting Indonesian travel bloggers, I think that, damn, Teddy and Maesy had been subbed, too.
(For a side note, on September 10th they will launch their inaugural book: Kisah Kawan di Ujung Sana. I strongly recommend this book. If you don't believe me, go visit their blog, read their writings. Tell me if you're not interested with their stories.)
Last Friday, through his Facebook, Teddy announced the opening of POST on Saturday, August 30th, 2014. POST is a 2-kiosk-unit space in Santa Market, South Jakarta, designed for creativity melting pots. Everyone can use it for gathering, discussion, book launching, garage sale, whatever. This is a Christmas comes early for struggling indie artists and start-up entrepreneurs who find that capitalism has encroached rent price, since they can pay for using POST in any price they like. And the event for last Saturday was traveler garage sale.
So, in August 30th me and my girlfriend, Nitha, went indeed to Santa Market. It was hot and humid Jakartan midday. Luckily Santa Market is not that far from our places. We parked my motor and, luckily again, we met Teddy right away at the parking lot. Wearing Navy T-shirt and yellowish-dark beige shorts, he told me that he was almost going home to take care the then sick Maesy. But he decided to walk us into a quick tour inside.
Going inside, we strolled directly to second floor. Teddy explained that the lowest floor is the "wet market" (meaning they sell fresh meats, fruits, and vegetables there). The floor above that is akin to ITC, a shopping center for clothes, bags, shoes, and perfumes, mostly counterfeit or cater to lower- and middle-class. Only, it is sadder than ITC. And the second floor is where POST exists.
Looking at the metal roof beams above, I mumbled to Nitha, "It's like that Phillip Seymour Hoffman movie."
"Huh?" she said.
It was Synecdoche, New York. But I refrained.
On the second floor, there are the Japanese vinyl record shop named SubStore, a coffee shop named Bear & Co., another coffee shop called ABCD Coffee (this one is quite famous, I'll tell later), a fried noodle vendor Miechino, a glutinous rice snack seller, a Germany electric cigarette shop named Snoke, another vinyl record shop named Laidback Blues, a nondescript second-hand clothing store, and of course POST. Most of them open only in the weekends and holidays. They were still closed when I came that day, except Teddy's place, which was full by the traveler garage sale attendees.
"They will open at 3 PM," Teddy said.
We then sat down near the stairs. Teddy proceeded to tell that Santa Market's second floor is now transforming into a creative space for youths, with artsy style. I gazed around and nodded with agreement. The exteriors, typography, and designs altogether seemed to compose a youthful ambiance. Perhaps, there's no more fitting place than this for Midjournal, a website for "cool" Indonesian "middle-class" youngsters (no sarcasm), which, according to Teddy, is about to open its office here. Whether Jakartabeat and Indoprogress soon to follow its steps is unclear, though.
On the back, some crews of a major news channel came out from POST. Apparently its opening already attracted exposure from major media.
It was still crowded with garage shoppers. And maybe still will for this month's weekends. There will be a pop up bookstore, a music appreciation gathering, and Drive Books Not Cars event if I'm not mistaken.
"You can use it for gathering and pay whatever sum you like. In fact, you can pay zilch to me if you're that shameless." Teddy said jokingly.
Teddy's friend, Joan, who was also a superb debater, stopped by to the place where we sat with a tattooed man whose name fleets my memory. I was not sure if he was a debater or not. I forgot if we ever introduced ourselves, either. The tattooed man joins ABCD Coffee course. There are four classes taught here, he said, and their first letters form the abbreviation "ABCD": appreciation, brewing, cupping, and definitive espresso. What's a definitive espresso, I asked. He wasn't sure what, either. We chatted for a while. I bought Yusi Avianto Pareanom's book which Teddy happened to bring with him. Then he said he wanted to go home to tend Maesy, followed with me and my girlfriend saying goodbye to them all, too.
"I'll be back here at 3. Gotta run some errands first."
"Sure!"
At 3 PM when we were back, the parking lots were already full with cars. I was amazed with these young people. My girlfriend was not surprised.
"[Things] like these are not rare in Jogja." said her.
"Yeah, but hanging out in a traditional market? How do they even know this place?"
"How do you not know about this place? It is already 'hype' and well-known, you know."
"Pasar Santa? Really?"
"Yep."
And our guessing was correct, it was full upstairs, too.
Many people were also gathering near this coffee shop. We sat by makeshift stools made from reused wood planks swallowing regrets of not buying cold mineral water. Joan and the tattooed man were there. Tirza and Denny (both were master debaters as well) sat next to us. Above us, there's a wooden signage with "A Bunch of Caffeine Dealer" emblazoned on it.
"I was stunned, never thought I'm gonna meet debating dinosaurs."
"Nah, we're not. Bubu is dinosaur." replied Denny.
Bubu, along with Perry, Patsy, Arif, and Ruli are the ones who brought competitive English debating to Indonesia. They are the Adams and Eve of debating here.
About half an hour or 45 minutes later, Nitha's order came.
"Too much milk." she remarked. I agreed.
It's a kind of unique concept, actually. First, the owner, Hendri Kurniawan, does not have a designated supplier for his coffee. Hendri, who is a certified barista and international level barista competition jury, brings whatever coffee beans he bought abroad (or given by his friends) as the ingredient. Thus, the taste may vary in every time he opens this shop. (My piccolo, which came 15 minutes later, had acidic taste typical to Arabica variant. Too much milk aside, it tasted different from Nitha's, somehow.) Second, ABCD coffee opens whenever it feels like it, so it adds to the aura of mysterious artisanal quality it has. And third, a tip jar instead of a cashier. Again, like POST, you can pay in whatever price you like. This one supposedly conveys a message that drinking coffee is an experience of sharing. But then again, when car-driving people around you dropped 50.000 or 100.000 rupiah bill, dropping 10.000 rupiah will make you either cheap and/or shameless and/or not appreciative in the eyes of the crowds. The power of silent peer pressure will make this shop a lucrative income source nonetheless.
We were hungry, so we visited Miechino. This noodle vendor's sign, a circle with vertical line inside and triangle on a third from top of it, all in red color, reminded me so much of Harry Potter's Deathly Hallows symbol. It was, so far, the food and beverage vendor here that was good. It was not overrated when Teddy said that the noodle was delicious. Minimalistic, with a splash of kuah (watery gravy) and sticky texture, but delicious. In fact, with only 15.000 rupiah a pop, it might as well be a godsend here.
The speakers from Laidback Blues blared acid house and trip hop musics. How very fitting, I thought.
"If we marry, I want these kinds of music in our wedding."
"Okay, so, no Whitney Houston?" I responded
"Yeah. And no Perri... Perri, what's her name? The 'A Thousand Years' singer?"
"Christina Perri."
"Definitely not her."
"Sure. We will make our moms listen to Aphex Twin, too."
We saw Teddy again, this time with Maesy. We introduced ourselves, and then they introduced themselves to new renter beside POST. There I saw Teddy and Maesy, being the walking, living social glue, mingled with almost all the tenants; a nice quality that I secretly envy.
The multitude of people and lack of AC still heated this floor. I yearned for some cold, cold drinks. Bear & Co. was the viable option.
Josh Estey, the owner, was standing behind the counter explaining to Tirza and Denny when we got there. In front of him, was a metal pipe of silvery color emerging from the counter. It branched into two, similar to what you see in hydrant. At its ends, there were two valves, like those on draught beer keg. The left valve was for tea, the right one was for coffee.
"I just got the nitrogen working this very morning. I made this counter by myself, from recycled woods. My friend gave the wood to me." he recounted with pride.
"What's the nitrogen for?" I asked him. I asked because from what I remember from my waking high school time, nitrogen is an inert gas.
"Oh, it's to make the coffee foamy."
"And you infuse carbon dioxide to the tea, like soda?"
"Kind of."
I asked for iced coffee, with lotsa milk. Nitha ordered the tea. They were 20k each. Same price, because this was the opening day. It was until very recently that Bear & Co. had its decor completed. Friends and family helped him, Josh narrated while making our requests.
Nitha questioned, "Where do you get the name 'Bear & Co.'"?
"My kids love bear. Hence the name."
He handed our drinks in plastic cup. "Thank you, Papa Bear!", said Nitha fondly. Josh chuckled. What a jolly sight.
She glanced at me while we walked away, saying "You gotta learn skills like that." As a person prone to faux pas, social niceties is certainly not my strongest suit.
We sipped the drinks in our hands, and we were baffled. This tasted not like coffee and milk, not even coffee, or milk, or coffee and milk in unbalanced proportion, or if it was diluted by too much water. This is something else. And I tasted Nitha's iced tea. It was another je ne sais quoi that didn't taste either like its individual (lemon, ice, and tea) or combined ingredients. So that nitrogen and carbon dioxide had to do something, after all.
We looked at the cup. Nitha said that the cups were hand-stamped by Josh himself, he told her. I observed this flock of young demimonde and their air of retromania once again. And suddenly an epiphany came: this place is a new Mecca of postmodernism and hipsterdom in Jakarta.
Recycled wood planks, hand-stamped cups and business cards, traditional snacks, and the artisanal coffee are the re-adoption of the pasts and the rejection to modernism together with its boring, industrialist, mass-produced commodities. It's an imaginary resistance of course. And these hipsters - which is a subset phenomenon of postmodernism - ironically embrace the proletarian spirit through the lens of the nouveau riches - the elitist, bourgeoisie perspective that they have. Irony is of course an inseparable part of hipsterism; a movement whose complete definition is still elusive to us. Is it an insatiable quest of being different from the hoi polloi, even though it is "mainstreaming" already? Is to be hipster to reject the calling of hipster itself, a perpetual "not me" attitude? Are these people, who try to make sophisticated observational comedy sketches out of ordinary situations (but sadly sound like lame dad jokes) hipsters? Are Puthut EA and Arman Dhani, our own stalwart, intellectual writers, trying to "hipsterize" themselves here?
It came to me that hipsterism possesses both objective and subjective quality in it. First, they have to be affluent, or at least belong to middle-class. Second, they must be quite eloquent, educated, and internet-literate. Third, they have to display their "uniqueness" or contrarian stance in some point. It can be in their attires, their favorite bands, or their uncaring attitude (ironic, I know). These serve as a marker of hipsterism as a stratum of culture different from "genuine", lowbrow culture embraced by the low class. Beyond that, hipsterism steps on the subjective realm. Dialetheistically, hipsters are alike and yet different in their own way. A person who listens to Pitchfork-endorsed bands like Miami Horror (this is my girlfriend) is a hipster for me, whose musical taste is that well-known Radiohead (this still makes me a hipster, too, though). Another person who loves to listen to keroncong or dangdut or Indonesian 60-70's musics or an obscure band from Tanzania is a hipster for both of us. But you can't call a Pantura trucker a hipster for listening to dangdut, for, according to hipster, it's a proper musical taste for them. Hipsterism's outermost layer is accordingly a personal last step of Hegelian dialectics: the synthesis. It is after meeting the antithesis in the form of le grand Autre, the self suffered from lack (manque) to project her ego outward. The synthesis therefore manifests in the radically different self from the big Others: the hipster. A hipster is a hipster in relations to one's concepts about herself and one's perceptions of how Others see her. Of course, I'm pulling all this seemingly sophisticated philosophical legerdemain out of my arse, but where else can you drop Hegel and Lacan? (And am I uber-hipster yet?)
But what justifies the 200-300% mark up or so for the tie-dye scarfs, or the wee traditional glutinous rice snacks here, even though you can find similar products perhaps one floor below? And it saddened me, to see these two worlds collide in this market. Below, the dreary, weary common folks, tired from waiting for the next customer. A middle-aged lady fanned herself incessantly with a thin book due to hot air. A man fell asleep on the floor near his counter. Perhaps, the whole day was wasted without a single customer at all. It pained me to look at this sight of contrasting vistas from above here; from the place where the hypes, the creatives, the differents, spouting buzzwords and making merry in their apparent "profound" style and musical tastes.
(For a side note, on September 10th they will launch their inaugural book: Kisah Kawan di Ujung Sana. I strongly recommend this book. If you don't believe me, go visit their blog, read their writings. Tell me if you're not interested with their stories.)
Last Friday, through his Facebook, Teddy announced the opening of POST on Saturday, August 30th, 2014. POST is a 2-kiosk-unit space in Santa Market, South Jakarta, designed for creativity melting pots. Everyone can use it for gathering, discussion, book launching, garage sale, whatever. This is a Christmas comes early for struggling indie artists and start-up entrepreneurs who find that capitalism has encroached rent price, since they can pay for using POST in any price they like. And the event for last Saturday was traveler garage sale.
So, in August 30th me and my girlfriend, Nitha, went indeed to Santa Market. It was hot and humid Jakartan midday. Luckily Santa Market is not that far from our places. We parked my motor and, luckily again, we met Teddy right away at the parking lot. Wearing Navy T-shirt and yellowish-dark beige shorts, he told me that he was almost going home to take care the then sick Maesy. But he decided to walk us into a quick tour inside.
Going inside, we strolled directly to second floor. Teddy explained that the lowest floor is the "wet market" (meaning they sell fresh meats, fruits, and vegetables there). The floor above that is akin to ITC, a shopping center for clothes, bags, shoes, and perfumes, mostly counterfeit or cater to lower- and middle-class. Only, it is sadder than ITC. And the second floor is where POST exists.
Looking at the metal roof beams above, I mumbled to Nitha, "It's like that Phillip Seymour Hoffman movie."
"Huh?" she said.
It was Synecdoche, New York. But I refrained.
On the second floor, there are the Japanese vinyl record shop named SubStore, a coffee shop named Bear & Co., another coffee shop called ABCD Coffee (this one is quite famous, I'll tell later), a fried noodle vendor Miechino, a glutinous rice snack seller, a Germany electric cigarette shop named Snoke, another vinyl record shop named Laidback Blues, a nondescript second-hand clothing store, and of course POST. Most of them open only in the weekends and holidays. They were still closed when I came that day, except Teddy's place, which was full by the traveler garage sale attendees.
"They will open at 3 PM," Teddy said.
We then sat down near the stairs. Teddy proceeded to tell that Santa Market's second floor is now transforming into a creative space for youths, with artsy style. I gazed around and nodded with agreement. The exteriors, typography, and designs altogether seemed to compose a youthful ambiance. Perhaps, there's no more fitting place than this for Midjournal, a website for "cool" Indonesian "middle-class" youngsters (no sarcasm), which, according to Teddy, is about to open its office here. Whether Jakartabeat and Indoprogress soon to follow its steps is unclear, though.
On the back, some crews of a major news channel came out from POST. Apparently its opening already attracted exposure from major media.
It was still crowded with garage shoppers. And maybe still will for this month's weekends. There will be a pop up bookstore, a music appreciation gathering, and Drive Books Not Cars event if I'm not mistaken.
"You can use it for gathering and pay whatever sum you like. In fact, you can pay zilch to me if you're that shameless." Teddy said jokingly.
Teddy's friend, Joan, who was also a superb debater, stopped by to the place where we sat with a tattooed man whose name fleets my memory. I was not sure if he was a debater or not. I forgot if we ever introduced ourselves, either. The tattooed man joins ABCD Coffee course. There are four classes taught here, he said, and their first letters form the abbreviation "ABCD": appreciation, brewing, cupping, and definitive espresso. What's a definitive espresso, I asked. He wasn't sure what, either. We chatted for a while. I bought Yusi Avianto Pareanom's book which Teddy happened to bring with him. Then he said he wanted to go home to tend Maesy, followed with me and my girlfriend saying goodbye to them all, too.
"I'll be back here at 3. Gotta run some errands first."
"Sure!"
At 3 PM when we were back, the parking lots were already full with cars. I was amazed with these young people. My girlfriend was not surprised.
"[Things] like these are not rare in Jogja." said her.
"Yeah, but hanging out in a traditional market? How do they even know this place?"
"How do you not know about this place? It is already 'hype' and well-known, you know."
"Pasar Santa? Really?"
"Yep."
And our guessing was correct, it was full upstairs, too.
All the tenants which were closed were opening. Coincidentally, Laidback Blues' event, "Pasar Ajojing" also had just started. A significant portion of the crowds might be coming for this. Hordes of hipsters and indie-looking folks swarming here and there, wearing obscure band merchs (Dinosaur Jr.!), pop-culture T-shirts (Star Wars!), or floral T-shirts reminiscing of hippies, um, sorry, flower power generations of the 60's and 70's.
Nitha and I went directly to the aforementioned ABCD coffee. Unfortunately, they don't sell iced coffee, even when this place was choking hot and its air was under-circulated. The AC central was only a remnant of Santa Market's glory day. Yet, we relented, ordering a cup of hot cappuccino and a cup of hot piccolo.
Many people were also gathering near this coffee shop. We sat by makeshift stools made from reused wood planks swallowing regrets of not buying cold mineral water. Joan and the tattooed man were there. Tirza and Denny (both were master debaters as well) sat next to us. Above us, there's a wooden signage with "A Bunch of Caffeine Dealer" emblazoned on it.
"I was stunned, never thought I'm gonna meet debating dinosaurs."
"Nah, we're not. Bubu is dinosaur." replied Denny.
Bubu, along with Perry, Patsy, Arif, and Ruli are the ones who brought competitive English debating to Indonesia. They are the Adams and Eve of debating here.
About half an hour or 45 minutes later, Nitha's order came.
"Too much milk." she remarked. I agreed.
It's a kind of unique concept, actually. First, the owner, Hendri Kurniawan, does not have a designated supplier for his coffee. Hendri, who is a certified barista and international level barista competition jury, brings whatever coffee beans he bought abroad (or given by his friends) as the ingredient. Thus, the taste may vary in every time he opens this shop. (My piccolo, which came 15 minutes later, had acidic taste typical to Arabica variant. Too much milk aside, it tasted different from Nitha's, somehow.) Second, ABCD coffee opens whenever it feels like it, so it adds to the aura of mysterious artisanal quality it has. And third, a tip jar instead of a cashier. Again, like POST, you can pay in whatever price you like. This one supposedly conveys a message that drinking coffee is an experience of sharing. But then again, when car-driving people around you dropped 50.000 or 100.000 rupiah bill, dropping 10.000 rupiah will make you either cheap and/or shameless and/or not appreciative in the eyes of the crowds. The power of silent peer pressure will make this shop a lucrative income source nonetheless.
We were hungry, so we visited Miechino. This noodle vendor's sign, a circle with vertical line inside and triangle on a third from top of it, all in red color, reminded me so much of Harry Potter's Deathly Hallows symbol. It was, so far, the food and beverage vendor here that was good. It was not overrated when Teddy said that the noodle was delicious. Minimalistic, with a splash of kuah (watery gravy) and sticky texture, but delicious. In fact, with only 15.000 rupiah a pop, it might as well be a godsend here.
The speakers from Laidback Blues blared acid house and trip hop musics. How very fitting, I thought.
"If we marry, I want these kinds of music in our wedding."
"Okay, so, no Whitney Houston?" I responded
"Yeah. And no Perri... Perri, what's her name? The 'A Thousand Years' singer?"
"Christina Perri."
"Definitely not her."
"Sure. We will make our moms listen to Aphex Twin, too."
We saw Teddy again, this time with Maesy. We introduced ourselves, and then they introduced themselves to new renter beside POST. There I saw Teddy and Maesy, being the walking, living social glue, mingled with almost all the tenants; a nice quality that I secretly envy.
The multitude of people and lack of AC still heated this floor. I yearned for some cold, cold drinks. Bear & Co. was the viable option.
Josh Estey, the owner, was standing behind the counter explaining to Tirza and Denny when we got there. In front of him, was a metal pipe of silvery color emerging from the counter. It branched into two, similar to what you see in hydrant. At its ends, there were two valves, like those on draught beer keg. The left valve was for tea, the right one was for coffee.
"I just got the nitrogen working this very morning. I made this counter by myself, from recycled woods. My friend gave the wood to me." he recounted with pride.
"What's the nitrogen for?" I asked him. I asked because from what I remember from my waking high school time, nitrogen is an inert gas.
"Oh, it's to make the coffee foamy."
"And you infuse carbon dioxide to the tea, like soda?"
"Kind of."
I asked for iced coffee, with lotsa milk. Nitha ordered the tea. They were 20k each. Same price, because this was the opening day. It was until very recently that Bear & Co. had its decor completed. Friends and family helped him, Josh narrated while making our requests.
Nitha questioned, "Where do you get the name 'Bear & Co.'"?
"My kids love bear. Hence the name."
He handed our drinks in plastic cup. "Thank you, Papa Bear!", said Nitha fondly. Josh chuckled. What a jolly sight.
She glanced at me while we walked away, saying "You gotta learn skills like that." As a person prone to faux pas, social niceties is certainly not my strongest suit.
We sipped the drinks in our hands, and we were baffled. This tasted not like coffee and milk, not even coffee, or milk, or coffee and milk in unbalanced proportion, or if it was diluted by too much water. This is something else. And I tasted Nitha's iced tea. It was another je ne sais quoi that didn't taste either like its individual (lemon, ice, and tea) or combined ingredients. So that nitrogen and carbon dioxide had to do something, after all.
We looked at the cup. Nitha said that the cups were hand-stamped by Josh himself, he told her. I observed this flock of young demimonde and their air of retromania once again. And suddenly an epiphany came: this place is a new Mecca of postmodernism and hipsterdom in Jakarta.
Recycled wood planks, hand-stamped cups and business cards, traditional snacks, and the artisanal coffee are the re-adoption of the pasts and the rejection to modernism together with its boring, industrialist, mass-produced commodities. It's an imaginary resistance of course. And these hipsters - which is a subset phenomenon of postmodernism - ironically embrace the proletarian spirit through the lens of the nouveau riches - the elitist, bourgeoisie perspective that they have. Irony is of course an inseparable part of hipsterism; a movement whose complete definition is still elusive to us. Is it an insatiable quest of being different from the hoi polloi, even though it is "mainstreaming" already? Is to be hipster to reject the calling of hipster itself, a perpetual "not me" attitude? Are these people, who try to make sophisticated observational comedy sketches out of ordinary situations (but sadly sound like lame dad jokes) hipsters? Are Puthut EA and Arman Dhani, our own stalwart, intellectual writers, trying to "hipsterize" themselves here?
It came to me that hipsterism possesses both objective and subjective quality in it. First, they have to be affluent, or at least belong to middle-class. Second, they must be quite eloquent, educated, and internet-literate. Third, they have to display their "uniqueness" or contrarian stance in some point. It can be in their attires, their favorite bands, or their uncaring attitude (ironic, I know). These serve as a marker of hipsterism as a stratum of culture different from "genuine", lowbrow culture embraced by the low class. Beyond that, hipsterism steps on the subjective realm. Dialetheistically, hipsters are alike and yet different in their own way. A person who listens to Pitchfork-endorsed bands like Miami Horror (this is my girlfriend) is a hipster for me, whose musical taste is that well-known Radiohead (this still makes me a hipster, too, though). Another person who loves to listen to keroncong or dangdut or Indonesian 60-70's musics or an obscure band from Tanzania is a hipster for both of us. But you can't call a Pantura trucker a hipster for listening to dangdut, for, according to hipster, it's a proper musical taste for them. Hipsterism's outermost layer is accordingly a personal last step of Hegelian dialectics: the synthesis. It is after meeting the antithesis in the form of le grand Autre, the self suffered from lack (manque) to project her ego outward. The synthesis therefore manifests in the radically different self from the big Others: the hipster. A hipster is a hipster in relations to one's concepts about herself and one's perceptions of how Others see her. Of course, I'm pulling all this seemingly sophisticated philosophical legerdemain out of my arse, but where else can you drop Hegel and Lacan? (And am I uber-hipster yet?)
But what justifies the 200-300% mark up or so for the tie-dye scarfs, or the wee traditional glutinous rice snacks here, even though you can find similar products perhaps one floor below? And it saddened me, to see these two worlds collide in this market. Below, the dreary, weary common folks, tired from waiting for the next customer. A middle-aged lady fanned herself incessantly with a thin book due to hot air. A man fell asleep on the floor near his counter. Perhaps, the whole day was wasted without a single customer at all. It pained me to look at this sight of contrasting vistas from above here; from the place where the hypes, the creatives, the differents, spouting buzzwords and making merry in their apparent "profound" style and musical tastes.
But if you ask me whether I will come here again next time, I'd say yes. I will also buy loads of cold mineral water from a vendor a floor below, to wash away not only my bodily heat, but also the guilt of being privileged and a concern troll at the same time.
Friday, August 29, 2014
Pertaining a Short, Weird Dream Last Week. Or, a Simplistic Mathematical Hooey Against Lesser of Two Evil Fallacy
This is gonna be very short.
Some days ago, I had a not-so-usual dream. In my dream, I was discussing with a man, whom I never know in real life. We were discussing about the latest Indonesian presidential election. Perhaps - representing my inner conscience - he accused my decision to vote for a certain candidate as a fallacy. Specifically, a lesser of two evil fallacy. To make it short, the lesser of two evil fallacy (more or less) states that even if you choose "the lesser evil" of two evil options, your choice still constitute a bad choice, i.e. lesser or greater notwithstanding, it's still an evil. Not voting is thus considered a better option than choosing the less evil one.
What follows is a weird answer from me.
I replied that this is not actually the case. Suppose there are candidate 1 and 2, who have (let's say) "evil score" of non-negative value of A and B, respectively. And since this is a presidential election, you will still get a president, either 1 or 2 (which is both evil anyway), even if you don't vote.
Let's assume, arbitrarily, that the value of A (evil score of candidate 1) > B (candidate 2's score). Then, there is a probability p between 0 and 1 of you getting candidate 1, and (1 - p) of getting candidate 2 as president. Not choosing either candidates will give you expected value of "evil score" as: pA + (1 - p)B.
Since A > B, it follows that pA + (1 - p)B > B, by the dumb calculation that because p + (1 - p) = 1, B = pB + (1 - p)B. And since A > B, then pA > pB for any value of 0 < p < 1. Thus, it is easily seen that pA + (1 - p)B > pB + (1 - p)B, which is another way to say that not choosing any candidates bears an expected value of evil score more than simply choosing the lesser evil one.
This of course can only be applied to personal choice and cannot be aggregated as a decision function of a whole society. After all, this is a super-duper-simplistic stuff coming from my sleeping brain. I'm putting this here because how funny it is for me, to be able to sleep and conjuring mathematical ramblings in a dream.
Some days ago, I had a not-so-usual dream. In my dream, I was discussing with a man, whom I never know in real life. We were discussing about the latest Indonesian presidential election. Perhaps - representing my inner conscience - he accused my decision to vote for a certain candidate as a fallacy. Specifically, a lesser of two evil fallacy. To make it short, the lesser of two evil fallacy (more or less) states that even if you choose "the lesser evil" of two evil options, your choice still constitute a bad choice, i.e. lesser or greater notwithstanding, it's still an evil. Not voting is thus considered a better option than choosing the less evil one.
What follows is a weird answer from me.
I replied that this is not actually the case. Suppose there are candidate 1 and 2, who have (let's say) "evil score" of non-negative value of A and B, respectively. And since this is a presidential election, you will still get a president, either 1 or 2 (which is both evil anyway), even if you don't vote.
Let's assume, arbitrarily, that the value of A (evil score of candidate 1) > B (candidate 2's score). Then, there is a probability p between 0 and 1 of you getting candidate 1, and (1 - p) of getting candidate 2 as president. Not choosing either candidates will give you expected value of "evil score" as: pA + (1 - p)B.
Since A > B, it follows that pA + (1 - p)B > B, by the dumb calculation that because p + (1 - p) = 1, B = pB + (1 - p)B. And since A > B, then pA > pB for any value of 0 < p < 1. Thus, it is easily seen that pA + (1 - p)B > pB + (1 - p)B, which is another way to say that not choosing any candidates bears an expected value of evil score more than simply choosing the lesser evil one.
This of course can only be applied to personal choice and cannot be aggregated as a decision function of a whole society. After all, this is a super-duper-simplistic stuff coming from my sleeping brain. I'm putting this here because how funny it is for me, to be able to sleep and conjuring mathematical ramblings in a dream.
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Belum Selesai
Ada seribu bunga terbakar di langit raya saat kita melihat keluar jendela, ungu, jingga, kuning, berkelap-kelip sebentar lalu hilang ditelan malam. Namun tidak dengan sepi ini. Seakan menikmati waktu, ia masuk, diam, mengiris nadi perlahan-lahan. Meninggalkan aku, sisa-sisa manusia yang masih akan dicekam ketakutan seribu hari kemudian.
"Genggamlah tanganku selagi aku masih bisa menggengam."
"Tentu, tentu." Jawabku lebih lirih lagi. Aku hampir tersedu. Habis sudah, tinggal nanar. Hatiku berteriak, rasanya tak kuat ditimbun sendu.
Satu tanganku menggenggam jemari tangan kirimu yang hangat, yang satunya menggenggam harap: biarlah kiranya penghabisan itu masih jauh adanya.
"Apa yang akan kau lakukan? Toh, tidak ada yang bisa kita perbuat."
"Entahlah. Mungkin berpesta," kataku bercanda.
"Bolehkah aku ikut denganmu?" Sayangnya kau tidak bercanda.
"Kau kan tahu, sebaiknya aku tidak boleh terlalu sedih, terlalu depresi. Maka biarkanlah aku ikut berpesta denganmu. Menghitung semua yang tersisa dengan suka dan tawa," lanjutmu.
"Baiklah, jika itu yang menjadi maumu." Namun tak kusangka usahaku menertawakan nasib akan menjadi sesusah ini.
Di antara gelas-gelas teh setengah kosong, juga hidangan dingin rumah makan Cina yang tak habis dimakan, kunikmati kedua matamu yang masih terang serupa pagi, sedangkan punyaku sendiri telah redup dan berangsur-angsur menutup, dibarengi nafas yang semakin berat dan terasa dingin, seperti senja bulan Desember yang tak mengenal apa pun selain mendung, dan air bah kotor yang menyapu jalanan kota ini, yang udaranya mencekik, yang airnya membikin sakit, yang manusianya sering kali brengsek.
Kursi berderit, pelayan mulai resah, menggumamkan keluh tentang hari yang seharusnya sudah berakhir seandainya saja dua orang yang sedang dilihatnya ini, yang tak menghabiskan makanan dan minumannya ini, segera membayar lalu pergi.
"Sudah selesai? Ayo kita pulang."
"Kau tidak keberatan jika kita jalan kaki saja?"
"Tentu tidak. Ayo."
Lalu kita keluar, menyusuri liku-liku jalanan sempit dimakan mobil di kiri kanan. Menjengkali rona biru gelap langit malam ini. Bergandeng tangan, melewati poskamling kosong dan anak-anak berlari-larian tak kenal hari. Anak-anak tanpa rasa cemas, yang belum mengenal getir yang bernama takdir, tak ada keharusan untuk menjadi tabah, hanya tertawa, menangis, tertawa, menangis, namun tidak pernah dikutuk untuk mengingat. Mengingat bahwa hidup tidak akan selamanya berlangsung.
Kita sampai di depan rumah tempatmu mengontrak. Kau membuka pagar, masuk, lalu memberi sebuah lambaian tanda aku harus pergi.
"Sampai jumpa besok! Aku mencintaimu."
"Aku mencintaimu juga."
Jalanan menuju tempat parkir motor di depan rumah makan Cina yang sekarang sudah tutup terasa mematahkan hati. Aku bergetar, menangis tanpa sebab. Aku pulang, ditemani angin tengah malam. Melewati lampu-lampu jalanan yang berkelibatan seperti lorong cahaya. Mengulang-ulang kalimat yang terakhir kuucapkan padamu malam ini. Merapalnya bak sepotong sajak duka. Merapalnya secara khusyuk dalam tangis. Dalam kegilaan.
Aku ingin menemanimu pulang malam ini, esok hari, selamanya. Aku ingin melihatmu tumbuh hingga renta. Karena semuanya indah di sana. Aku ingin semuanya tetap indah di sana.
"Genggamlah tanganku selagi aku masih bisa menggengam."
"Tentu, tentu." Jawabku lebih lirih lagi. Aku hampir tersedu. Habis sudah, tinggal nanar. Hatiku berteriak, rasanya tak kuat ditimbun sendu.
Satu tanganku menggenggam jemari tangan kirimu yang hangat, yang satunya menggenggam harap: biarlah kiranya penghabisan itu masih jauh adanya.
"Apa yang akan kau lakukan? Toh, tidak ada yang bisa kita perbuat."
"Entahlah. Mungkin berpesta," kataku bercanda.
"Bolehkah aku ikut denganmu?" Sayangnya kau tidak bercanda.
"Kau kan tahu, sebaiknya aku tidak boleh terlalu sedih, terlalu depresi. Maka biarkanlah aku ikut berpesta denganmu. Menghitung semua yang tersisa dengan suka dan tawa," lanjutmu.
"Baiklah, jika itu yang menjadi maumu." Namun tak kusangka usahaku menertawakan nasib akan menjadi sesusah ini.
Di antara gelas-gelas teh setengah kosong, juga hidangan dingin rumah makan Cina yang tak habis dimakan, kunikmati kedua matamu yang masih terang serupa pagi, sedangkan punyaku sendiri telah redup dan berangsur-angsur menutup, dibarengi nafas yang semakin berat dan terasa dingin, seperti senja bulan Desember yang tak mengenal apa pun selain mendung, dan air bah kotor yang menyapu jalanan kota ini, yang udaranya mencekik, yang airnya membikin sakit, yang manusianya sering kali brengsek.
Kursi berderit, pelayan mulai resah, menggumamkan keluh tentang hari yang seharusnya sudah berakhir seandainya saja dua orang yang sedang dilihatnya ini, yang tak menghabiskan makanan dan minumannya ini, segera membayar lalu pergi.
"Sudah selesai? Ayo kita pulang."
"Kau tidak keberatan jika kita jalan kaki saja?"
"Tentu tidak. Ayo."
Lalu kita keluar, menyusuri liku-liku jalanan sempit dimakan mobil di kiri kanan. Menjengkali rona biru gelap langit malam ini. Bergandeng tangan, melewati poskamling kosong dan anak-anak berlari-larian tak kenal hari. Anak-anak tanpa rasa cemas, yang belum mengenal getir yang bernama takdir, tak ada keharusan untuk menjadi tabah, hanya tertawa, menangis, tertawa, menangis, namun tidak pernah dikutuk untuk mengingat. Mengingat bahwa hidup tidak akan selamanya berlangsung.
Kita sampai di depan rumah tempatmu mengontrak. Kau membuka pagar, masuk, lalu memberi sebuah lambaian tanda aku harus pergi.
"Sampai jumpa besok! Aku mencintaimu."
"Aku mencintaimu juga."
Jalanan menuju tempat parkir motor di depan rumah makan Cina yang sekarang sudah tutup terasa mematahkan hati. Aku bergetar, menangis tanpa sebab. Aku pulang, ditemani angin tengah malam. Melewati lampu-lampu jalanan yang berkelibatan seperti lorong cahaya. Mengulang-ulang kalimat yang terakhir kuucapkan padamu malam ini. Merapalnya bak sepotong sajak duka. Merapalnya secara khusyuk dalam tangis. Dalam kegilaan.
Aku ingin menemanimu pulang malam ini, esok hari, selamanya. Aku ingin melihatmu tumbuh hingga renta. Karena semuanya indah di sana. Aku ingin semuanya tetap indah di sana.
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Love Steaks: Menu Baru Sinema Jerman
Jika diibaratkan dengan sebuah steik, dunia sinema konvensional adalah steik yang dimasak terlalu matang: kaku dan hambar, jika tidak pahit. Dan steik ini, rupanya dimasak oleh restoran-restoran waralaba pula, yang bahan dan cara masakannya sudah dipatok hanya itu-itu saja. Rigiditas struktur, pendanaan, dan proses perfilman gaya lama yang membikin jenuh ini lantas digugat oleh mereka yang menyebut dirinya sebagai gerakan "indie". Kaum "indie" ini mendobrak kemapanan dengan menawarkan ide dan teknik yang lebih segar dan bebas. Mereka berani mengangkat gagasan yang kadang eksentrik, kadang bahkan terlalu sepele, lalu bermain-main dengannya menjadi karya seni; mengembalikan film kepada titahnya sebagai sebuah media ekspresi, dan bukannya alat pencari kekayaan materi.
Saat Lars von Trier dan Thomas Vinterberg menginisiasi gerakan yang mereka sebut Dogme 95 hampir 20 tahun lalu, mereka sedang melawan hegemoni studio film juga dependensi yang berlebihan kepada special effect dan gimmick pascaproduksi lainnya. Dan pada tahun 2013 di Jerman, Jakob Lass mencoba membuat gerakan yang serupa. Gerakan yang diberi nama FOGMA ini (mungkin sebuah penghormatan kepada Dogme 95) melahirkan anak pertamanya dalam Love Steaks, film produksi Lass bersama Ines Schiller dan Golo Schultz.
Love Steaks adalah sebuah film komedi-tragis tentang dua orang yang sifatnya berbeda jauh, Clemens dan Lara, yang berlatar di sebuah hotel berbintang. Ceritanya cenderung minimalis saja, mirip cerita-cerita pendek Alice Munro atau Raymond Carver. Clemens (Franz Rogowski), adalah seorang terapis pijat (masseuse) baru di hotel tersebut. Selain belajar tentang teknik memijat dan tenaga dalam (kurang lebih seperti konsep aliran Qi), ia ditugasi untuk membersihkan area spa dan mengangkut pakaian dan handuk kotor ke bagian laundry. Karena tidak punya tempat tinggal, ia diberi kebebasan untuk tidur di sebuah ruangan di dekat tempat laundry, meskipun untuk itu ia harus merelakan privasinya nyaris nihil. Lara (Lana Cooper) adalah seorang trainee juga. Ia bekerja di situ lebih dulu daripada Clemens, di bagian restoran sebagai koki.
Clemens adalah seorang pemuda yang pemalu, canggung, ceroboh, dan tidak berpengalaman secara seksual. Neurotisismenya mengingatkan saya pada Woody Allen di film-filmnya tahun 70'-80'-an. Sedangkan Lara adalah semua hal yang bukan Clemens: enerjik, pemberani, berjiwa bebas, dan bahkan cenderung suka berbuat onar. Namun di balik itu ia adalah pemabuk yang parah. Berawal pada pertemuan pertama di sebuah lift (mengingatkan saya pada salah satu bagian di 500 Days of Summer) hidup mereka semakin mendekat, apalagi sejak Clemens menyelamatkan Lara yang mabuk sampai terkapar di tepi pantai. Mereka bertukar hadiah, antara massage dan steik (yang ditolak Clemens karena dia vegetarian). Namun tak hanya itu yang mereka tukar, tetapi juga cara menjalani hidup, antara stabilitas dan kebebasan. Clemens menemukan keberaniannya lewat tantangan-tantangan konyol dari Lara (seperti untuk menepuk pantat Lara dengan keras atau mengaku pada seorang supervisor bahwa dia menjadi fantasi seksual Clemens). Lara yang pemabuk pelan-pelan mulai memperbaiki kebiasaan buruknya melalui terapi dan meditasi yang diajarkan Clemens. Adegan-adegan yang komikal membalut romantisisme mereka berdua, misalnya kecerobohan Clemens setiap kali mengepel lantai, juga kelakar Lara saat melihat ritual penyembuhan alkoholisme a la Timur yang nyeleneh.
Clemens, di satu sisi, adalah perwujudan order, keteraturan. Lara, di sisi lain adalah perwujudan chaos, kekacauan. Ini tentu adalah tema yang lumayan galib dalam dunia persinemaan. Namun, Love Steaks bukanlah cerita cinta dengan narasi "opposites attracts" yang klise. Ia bukanlah - menyitir Zizek - kisah tentang orang kaya muda dalam krisis identitas yang mendapatkan kembali semangatnya setelah berhubungan singkat dengan kehidupan orang miskin (atau liar) yang penuh gairah. Baik Clemens dan Lara tidak berasal dari keluarga yang kaya atau terpandang, tak pula sukses dalam hidup dan pekerjaan. Ini adalah kisah cinta dua orang biasa yang satu sama lain mencoba menjadi mediator perubahan hidup mereka yang sama-sama menyedihkan. Ada dua adegan berbau katarsis di sini: Lara yang mengubur flask-nya di pantai, tanda bahwa dia siap mengubur bagian terburuk dirinya. Kedua, adegan Clemens yang dilapisi dengan daging mentah oleh Lara sembari berdiskusi tentang genitalia, simbolisme Clemens yang menerima keduniawian dan seksualitasnya. Proses transformasi ini, tentu saja juga tidak sempurna. Konflik mengenai adiksi, konsep-diri ("Mengapa selalu kau yang ambil kendali, Lara?"), dan problematika dunia kerja mulai timbul dan menjadi pemisah. Dan, sama seperti di kehidupan nyata, opposites also destroy.
Selain itu, dalam salah satu fragmennya, Love Steaks memberikan sedikit potret tentang kiriarki dalam adegan pelecehan seksual yang dialami Clemens oleh seorang wanita setengah tua yang menggunakan jasanya. Clemens bingung harus bertindak seperti apa, bahkan menolak saran Lara untuk komplain secara langsung kepada wanita itu, dengan alasan wanita itu lebih berkuasa karena dia kaya. Di sini konsep gender flip tak melulu tentang Clemens yang pemalu (atribut yang secara tradisional dianggap feminin) dan tingkah Lara yang cenderung jantan. Ada pembalikan relasi kuasa, di mana laki-laki menjadi korbannya. Love Steaks menunjukkan bahwa inilah yang dihadapi oleh para wanita korban pelecehan (atau korban patriarki pada umumnya), yaitu ketidakmampuan melawan karena ketimpangan kuasa. Ia menyentil para lelaki yang secara default diuntungkan dalam masyarakat, yang secara emosional buta terhadap apa yang dialami para wanita.
FOGMA dan Inovasi dalam Film
Sesuai dengan manifesto FOGMA, Jakob Lass menggarap Love Steaks dengan menyediakan sebanyak mungkin ruang untuk fleksibilitas. Digarap dengan immersionisme a la film dokumenter, ia menggunakan hotel sungguhan sebagai setnya, lengkap dengan segala hiruk-pikuknya yang tidak dibuat-buat. Tak hanya itu, mengutip wawancara oleh Lilian Maria Pithan di situs Cafebabel, Lass menuturkan bahwa film ini dibuat dengan "[t]idak ada sepatah kata dari dialog pun yang ditulis. 'Naskahnya', begitulah, hanya berdasarkan sebuah garis besar yang membentuk kerangka kasarnya, berfokus pada hubungan antara Lara dan Clemens dalam lima fase dan 18 adegan". Lass juga bereksperimen dengan menggunakan artis nonprofesional: Lana Cooper mulanya melamar sebagai asisten sutradara, sedangkan Franz Rogowski adalah seorang penari. Pun juga mereka yang menjadi ekstra adalah benar-benar pegawai hotel.
Seperti Dogme 95, Lass dan Timon Schaeppi memakai kamera hand-held dan menolak penggunaan sumber cahaya tambahan. Dengan kemajuan teknologi kamera dewasa ini, kualitas gambarnya sama sekali tidak menjadi masalah. Cuts diterapkan secara ekstensif dalam film ini, baik match cuts (misalnya pada sebuah juktaposisi adegan Lara memasak steik dan Clemens memijat pelanggan) maupun jump cuts (yang digunakan hampir sepanjang film). Tidak ada shots yang berdurasi lama (baik establishing shots atau tracking shots). Karena dibuat dengan set-up single camera apalagi hand-held, Love Steaks adalah sebuah film yang stakato dan berpotensi membosankan seandainya saja Schaeppi tidak memvariasikan sudut dan perspektif pengambilan gambar. Scoring dari Golo Schultz bernada upbeat meskipun menurut saya cenderung disonan. Momen yang secara visual terlihat emosional (contohnya saat Clemens membopong Lara dari pantai) malah diberi scoring yang berdentum-dentum.
Jakob Lass mungkin saja "hanya" membangkitkan kembali Dogme 95 yang sudah lama mati dengan nama yang baru. Namun sesungguhnya FOGMA adalah lebih dari itu. Ia tidak hanya menghendaki postmodernisme stilistik atau impulsivitas proses kreatif semata. Ia juga menghendaki kebebasan dalam proses distribusi film. Selama ini di Jerman film yang didanai publik, seperti sekolah film, harus masuk ke bioskop dulu sebelum bisa didistribusikan lewat web atau DVD. Praktis, hanya sedikit film keluaran sekolah film yang mendapat perhatian publik (atau kritik). Jakob Lass hendak mengubah tren ini, meskipun sayangnya gagal melawan asosiasi bioskop AG Kino. Akan tetapi, dengan banyaknya penghargaan yang telah diraih Love Steaks, ia membuktikan bahwa film bisa dibuat dengan murah, bebas, dan tetap berkualitas tinggi. Inilah yang bisa dipakai untuk membuka jalan bagi film-film FOGMA lainnya, sehingga nantinya banyak muncul menu baru di ranah perfilman Jerman: karya-karya sinema hasil racikan bebas, yang menyegarkan dan sedap ditonton, bagi publik Jerman maupun internasional.
Saat Lars von Trier dan Thomas Vinterberg menginisiasi gerakan yang mereka sebut Dogme 95 hampir 20 tahun lalu, mereka sedang melawan hegemoni studio film juga dependensi yang berlebihan kepada special effect dan gimmick pascaproduksi lainnya. Dan pada tahun 2013 di Jerman, Jakob Lass mencoba membuat gerakan yang serupa. Gerakan yang diberi nama FOGMA ini (mungkin sebuah penghormatan kepada Dogme 95) melahirkan anak pertamanya dalam Love Steaks, film produksi Lass bersama Ines Schiller dan Golo Schultz.
Love Steaks adalah sebuah film komedi-tragis tentang dua orang yang sifatnya berbeda jauh, Clemens dan Lara, yang berlatar di sebuah hotel berbintang. Ceritanya cenderung minimalis saja, mirip cerita-cerita pendek Alice Munro atau Raymond Carver. Clemens (Franz Rogowski), adalah seorang terapis pijat (masseuse) baru di hotel tersebut. Selain belajar tentang teknik memijat dan tenaga dalam (kurang lebih seperti konsep aliran Qi), ia ditugasi untuk membersihkan area spa dan mengangkut pakaian dan handuk kotor ke bagian laundry. Karena tidak punya tempat tinggal, ia diberi kebebasan untuk tidur di sebuah ruangan di dekat tempat laundry, meskipun untuk itu ia harus merelakan privasinya nyaris nihil. Lara (Lana Cooper) adalah seorang trainee juga. Ia bekerja di situ lebih dulu daripada Clemens, di bagian restoran sebagai koki.
Clemens adalah seorang pemuda yang pemalu, canggung, ceroboh, dan tidak berpengalaman secara seksual. Neurotisismenya mengingatkan saya pada Woody Allen di film-filmnya tahun 70'-80'-an. Sedangkan Lara adalah semua hal yang bukan Clemens: enerjik, pemberani, berjiwa bebas, dan bahkan cenderung suka berbuat onar. Namun di balik itu ia adalah pemabuk yang parah. Berawal pada pertemuan pertama di sebuah lift (mengingatkan saya pada salah satu bagian di 500 Days of Summer) hidup mereka semakin mendekat, apalagi sejak Clemens menyelamatkan Lara yang mabuk sampai terkapar di tepi pantai. Mereka bertukar hadiah, antara massage dan steik (yang ditolak Clemens karena dia vegetarian). Namun tak hanya itu yang mereka tukar, tetapi juga cara menjalani hidup, antara stabilitas dan kebebasan. Clemens menemukan keberaniannya lewat tantangan-tantangan konyol dari Lara (seperti untuk menepuk pantat Lara dengan keras atau mengaku pada seorang supervisor bahwa dia menjadi fantasi seksual Clemens). Lara yang pemabuk pelan-pelan mulai memperbaiki kebiasaan buruknya melalui terapi dan meditasi yang diajarkan Clemens. Adegan-adegan yang komikal membalut romantisisme mereka berdua, misalnya kecerobohan Clemens setiap kali mengepel lantai, juga kelakar Lara saat melihat ritual penyembuhan alkoholisme a la Timur yang nyeleneh.
Clemens, di satu sisi, adalah perwujudan order, keteraturan. Lara, di sisi lain adalah perwujudan chaos, kekacauan. Ini tentu adalah tema yang lumayan galib dalam dunia persinemaan. Namun, Love Steaks bukanlah cerita cinta dengan narasi "opposites attracts" yang klise. Ia bukanlah - menyitir Zizek - kisah tentang orang kaya muda dalam krisis identitas yang mendapatkan kembali semangatnya setelah berhubungan singkat dengan kehidupan orang miskin (atau liar) yang penuh gairah. Baik Clemens dan Lara tidak berasal dari keluarga yang kaya atau terpandang, tak pula sukses dalam hidup dan pekerjaan. Ini adalah kisah cinta dua orang biasa yang satu sama lain mencoba menjadi mediator perubahan hidup mereka yang sama-sama menyedihkan. Ada dua adegan berbau katarsis di sini: Lara yang mengubur flask-nya di pantai, tanda bahwa dia siap mengubur bagian terburuk dirinya. Kedua, adegan Clemens yang dilapisi dengan daging mentah oleh Lara sembari berdiskusi tentang genitalia, simbolisme Clemens yang menerima keduniawian dan seksualitasnya. Proses transformasi ini, tentu saja juga tidak sempurna. Konflik mengenai adiksi, konsep-diri ("Mengapa selalu kau yang ambil kendali, Lara?"), dan problematika dunia kerja mulai timbul dan menjadi pemisah. Dan, sama seperti di kehidupan nyata, opposites also destroy.
Selain itu, dalam salah satu fragmennya, Love Steaks memberikan sedikit potret tentang kiriarki dalam adegan pelecehan seksual yang dialami Clemens oleh seorang wanita setengah tua yang menggunakan jasanya. Clemens bingung harus bertindak seperti apa, bahkan menolak saran Lara untuk komplain secara langsung kepada wanita itu, dengan alasan wanita itu lebih berkuasa karena dia kaya. Di sini konsep gender flip tak melulu tentang Clemens yang pemalu (atribut yang secara tradisional dianggap feminin) dan tingkah Lara yang cenderung jantan. Ada pembalikan relasi kuasa, di mana laki-laki menjadi korbannya. Love Steaks menunjukkan bahwa inilah yang dihadapi oleh para wanita korban pelecehan (atau korban patriarki pada umumnya), yaitu ketidakmampuan melawan karena ketimpangan kuasa. Ia menyentil para lelaki yang secara default diuntungkan dalam masyarakat, yang secara emosional buta terhadap apa yang dialami para wanita.
FOGMA dan Inovasi dalam Film
Sesuai dengan manifesto FOGMA, Jakob Lass menggarap Love Steaks dengan menyediakan sebanyak mungkin ruang untuk fleksibilitas. Digarap dengan immersionisme a la film dokumenter, ia menggunakan hotel sungguhan sebagai setnya, lengkap dengan segala hiruk-pikuknya yang tidak dibuat-buat. Tak hanya itu, mengutip wawancara oleh Lilian Maria Pithan di situs Cafebabel, Lass menuturkan bahwa film ini dibuat dengan "[t]idak ada sepatah kata dari dialog pun yang ditulis. 'Naskahnya', begitulah, hanya berdasarkan sebuah garis besar yang membentuk kerangka kasarnya, berfokus pada hubungan antara Lara dan Clemens dalam lima fase dan 18 adegan". Lass juga bereksperimen dengan menggunakan artis nonprofesional: Lana Cooper mulanya melamar sebagai asisten sutradara, sedangkan Franz Rogowski adalah seorang penari. Pun juga mereka yang menjadi ekstra adalah benar-benar pegawai hotel.
Seperti Dogme 95, Lass dan Timon Schaeppi memakai kamera hand-held dan menolak penggunaan sumber cahaya tambahan. Dengan kemajuan teknologi kamera dewasa ini, kualitas gambarnya sama sekali tidak menjadi masalah. Cuts diterapkan secara ekstensif dalam film ini, baik match cuts (misalnya pada sebuah juktaposisi adegan Lara memasak steik dan Clemens memijat pelanggan) maupun jump cuts (yang digunakan hampir sepanjang film). Tidak ada shots yang berdurasi lama (baik establishing shots atau tracking shots). Karena dibuat dengan set-up single camera apalagi hand-held, Love Steaks adalah sebuah film yang stakato dan berpotensi membosankan seandainya saja Schaeppi tidak memvariasikan sudut dan perspektif pengambilan gambar. Scoring dari Golo Schultz bernada upbeat meskipun menurut saya cenderung disonan. Momen yang secara visual terlihat emosional (contohnya saat Clemens membopong Lara dari pantai) malah diberi scoring yang berdentum-dentum.
Jakob Lass mungkin saja "hanya" membangkitkan kembali Dogme 95 yang sudah lama mati dengan nama yang baru. Namun sesungguhnya FOGMA adalah lebih dari itu. Ia tidak hanya menghendaki postmodernisme stilistik atau impulsivitas proses kreatif semata. Ia juga menghendaki kebebasan dalam proses distribusi film. Selama ini di Jerman film yang didanai publik, seperti sekolah film, harus masuk ke bioskop dulu sebelum bisa didistribusikan lewat web atau DVD. Praktis, hanya sedikit film keluaran sekolah film yang mendapat perhatian publik (atau kritik). Jakob Lass hendak mengubah tren ini, meskipun sayangnya gagal melawan asosiasi bioskop AG Kino. Akan tetapi, dengan banyaknya penghargaan yang telah diraih Love Steaks, ia membuktikan bahwa film bisa dibuat dengan murah, bebas, dan tetap berkualitas tinggi. Inilah yang bisa dipakai untuk membuka jalan bagi film-film FOGMA lainnya, sehingga nantinya banyak muncul menu baru di ranah perfilman Jerman: karya-karya sinema hasil racikan bebas, yang menyegarkan dan sedap ditonton, bagi publik Jerman maupun internasional.
Monday, August 11, 2014
Tentang Cerita yang Belum Kuceritakan Kepadamu - Sebuah Review
Tragedi seringkali melahirkan karya-karya yang monumental. Dan, tidak ada yang lebih tragis dari kematian dan penderitaan manusia selain cinta yang tak berbalas. Dari Don Quixote - Dulcinea rekaan Cervantes, hingga Jay Gatsby - Daisy Buchanan dalam novel Fitzgerald, dari puisi epik Dante hingga sonata-sonata Shakespeare, cinta tak berbalas menjadi leitmotif karya seni dalam berbagai genre dan bentuk. Kali ini, seorang kawan saya yang berbakat, Gita Wiryawan, mendapat gilirannya memanggul salib melewati Via Melancholia, dan lantas menuliskan dysangelion-nya[1] yang ia beri judul "Tentang Cerita yang Belum Kuceritakan Kepadamu." Tulisan-tulisan ini Gita ini mulanya dimuat dalam blog pribadinya yang dia beri password. Baru kemudian karya epistolaris digital ini ia jadikan sebuah buku cetak yang didedikasikan untuk pujaan hatinya (mari kita tidak usah bahas siapa orangnya). Anda tidak akan menemui buku ini di toko buku manapun, karena di tata surya ini hanya ada 10 buah buku ini yang dicetak dan semuanya tidak dijual. Mungkin karena ini sebenarnya hanyalah curhatan yang dibukukan? Yang jelas, Gita melewatkan kesempatan menjadi idola remaja Indonesia masa kini seperti Alitt Susanto, Arief Muhammad, dan Raditya Dika. (Toh, salah satu syarat menjadi idola - dengan menjadi seorang mikroseleb di Twitter - kurang lebih sudah dipenuhi Gita).
Gita membuka buku ini dengan tulisan di bagian sampul belakang: "Surealisme adalah hal yang paling logis yang bisa ditemui ketika orang berhadapan dengan cinta [...] kau terjatuh di dunia yang sama sekali tidak kau mengerti." Ketidakmengertian Gita dalam cinta yang serba tak logis dan paradoksikal ini menggemakan kembali ratapan Werther muda tentang Lotte dalam karya Goethe, katanya, “Kadang-kadang aku tidak mengerti bagaimana orang lain bisa mencintainya, dan boleh mencintainya, sedangkan aku pun juga mencintainya segenap jiwaku, begitu kuat, begitu penuh, tidak memahami apa-apa, tidak mengetahui apa-apa, dan tidak mempunyai apa-apa selain dia!" Orang yang mencinta secara dahsyat tentu pernah merasakan hal yang seperti ini, sebuah cinta yang melukai namun menciptakan adiksi. Kegagalannya menghasilkan kegetiran dan kemarahan yang serupa badai dalam bentuk mental dan emosional, meninggalkan manusia-manusia yang pecah dan remuk. Butuh usaha lebih bagi beberapa orang untuk bangkit dari bentuknya yang tinggal puing. Ada yang melakukan solo trip ribuan kilometer hanya untuk membangun kembali kota hatinya, ada juga yang menulis seperti Gita ini. Dan lewat buku ini Gita tidak sedang mencari permakluman (dan rasanya memang tidak perlu) terhadap kelakuan Sisifean ini, karena katanya (kepada si pujaan hati – mari kita sebut si Perempuan), "Tentu kau boleh menertawai golongan orang macam itu." Jika saja Werther muda mengenal Gita, mungkin ia akan berkata padanya, "Sind wir nicht alle Trunkene und Wahnsinnige?"[2]
Sebuah buku sekali tenggak, "Tentang Cerita..." hanya sepanjang 101 halaman terdiri atas 18 fragmen yang berbentuk mirip surat-surat tak terkirim. Tidak ada surat yang terlalu panjang, kebanyakan terdiri dari 4-5 paragraf berisi 4-5 kalimat yang ringkas pula. Bahkan ada satu entri (#5) yang hanya terdiri dari satu paragraf. Di bagian akhir buku ini, terdapat testimoni-testimoni dari teman-teman terdekat Gita yang kurang lebih mengetahui hubungan mereka berdua. Saya pun ikut menulis testimoni di situ (tetapi malah seperti tahi cicak kering di buku yang sudah lama tidak Anda baca: mengganggu).
Gita menulis buku ini dengan dengan konstruksi yang prosaik nan minimalis. Isinya berupa observasi momen-ke-momen seperti yang biasa Anda ceritakan pada kekasih lewat telepon. Dalam entri #2, misalnya, Gita bertutur tentang pekerjaannya dan uraian tugasnya yang baru di seksi yang baru, juga tentang kesialannya gara-gara seorang pegawai yang tidak teliti membuat dia harus mengerjakan ulang semuanya. Di entri selanjutnya, Gita berbicara tentang syukuran seorang pegawai temannya satu kantor atas kesembuhan anaknya yang baru saja keluar dari rumah sakit. Yang lain bercerita tentang arisan keluarga, perjalanannya ke Kuala Tungkal (beserta kondisi penempatan di daerah-daerah terpencil di luar Jawa), menonton film di mall, serta cerita tentang wayang, puisi Wiji Thukul, dan novel lama Murakami Haruki. Yang terpendek, #5, malah hampir-hampir puisi. Jika boleh saya beri enjambemen asal-asalan, maka ia akan terbaca seperti ini:
Pukul tiga pagi,
kurang sepuluh menit
Dan aku hanya ingin bilang bahwa
aku
merindukanmu.
Tak lupa, seperti biasa, ia menyelipkan kalimat-kalimat quotable khas Gita seperti, “Ingatan bisa dimanipulasi. Rekam jejak tidak” atau “Melihatmu di masa kini adalah mengekalkan sebuah kesedihan.”
Pada paragraf-paragraf akhir fragmennya Gita dengan halus memutar kisah kehidupannya sehari-hari menjadi sebuah quasi-monolog yang gelisah, murung, dan penuh frustasi. Seperti pantun, setiap fragmennya mempunyai “sampiran” berupa cerita-cerita yang banal. Wajah adik-adik kelasnya yang muram karena meninggalkan keluarga demi bekerja di tempat yang jauh menjadi ilustrasi kemuramannya yang ditinggalkan oleh si Perempuan. Membaca buku Murakami menjadi ilustrasi tentang buku, sebagai sebuah analogi kehidupan: sesuatu yang punya akhir, sesuatu yang bisa dilanjutkan dengan buku (baca: kehidupan) yang baru. Gita seperti membuat lukisan realis alih-alih - seperti yang diklaimnya sendiri - surealis. Tidak dalam simbolisme yang kabur, namun dalam jelujuran narasi yang remeh-temeh.
Yang menarik, Gita pun menggunakan tulisannya sebagai wadah untuk menggugat modernitas dan ekses negatifnya. Misal ketika dia sedang menginap di hotel ber-AC, dan lantas mengingat masih ada orang yang tidak berpunya. Atau saat ia tertampar oleh puisi Wiji Thukul tentang keegoisan yang tersirat dari kebiasaan bibliofilik yang ia punyai. Bahkan dalam satu fragmen, kamerad Gita mengajak Si Perempuan untuk ikut berpikir sejenak mengenai kondisi tanah di Jambi yang menjadi gersang karena dioverekspoitasi oleh petani kelapa sawit, “Untuk kasus ini, menurutmu siapa yang benar-benar peduli? Pemerintah yang kerjaannya hanya berebut kekuasaan? Perusahaan yang hanya memikirkan soal cara memperoleh uang sebanyak-banyaknya? Atau penduduk yang bermodal kecil dan minim edukasi?” Mirip sekali dengan kader muda sebuah partai kiri yang sedang mengajak pacarnya diskusi. Sayangnya bagi Gita, ajakan diskusi ini nampaknya hanya memantul ke tembok.
Gita Wiryawan bisa dibilang adalah orang yang secara tidak langsung mengajari saya menulis. Saya tentu sudah memperhatikan tulisan-tulisan dia sejak lama, dan bagi saya buku semi-otobiografikal ini memberi kesan ketergesaan dalam penggarapannya. Kata-katanya tidak setajam tulisan-tulisan dia di blog. Pemilihan diksi khas Gita juga tampil sangat minimal, dan seandainya tidak ada sama sekali, maka membaca buku ini seperti membaca buku diari seorang anak SMA atau buku Raditya Dika. [3] Bukan salah Gita tentu saja. Saya lebih-lebih tidak mungkin menyalahkan editornya, Prima Sulistya, yang adalah salah satu editor muda par excellence dan paling cermat di negeri ini. Mungkin gaya penulisan curhat seperti ini bukanlah gaya yang bisa mengeluarkan potensi menulis Gita secara penuh.
Sesenang-senangnya saya mendapatkan buku gratis, apalagi tulisan seorang kawan sendiri, tentu saya berharap yang terbaik baginya. Ya, saya berharap tidak akan muncul sekuel "Tentang Cerita yang Belum Kuceritakan Kepadamu". Juga semoga tidak akan muncul perempuan-perempuan yang menghancurkan hati Gita Wiryawan di masa depan. Tak peduli kata Nuran Wibisono, seorang pengamat musik kawakan Indonesia, bahwa “Kesedihan adalah sesuatu yang seksi.” Tak peduli darinya lahir beribu paragraf dan bait puisi.
I wish you way more than luck for your future endeavors, Gita.
***
[1] Lawan kata dari euangelion yang berarti kabar baik (eu- berarti baik). Secara literal dysangelion berarti kabar buruk.
[2] "Bukankah kita semua pemabuk dan orang gila?"
[3] Sang penulis, Gita Wiryawan, pun menertawakan bukunya sendiri ketika kami bertemu dan minum-minum Jumat malam lalu di sebuah bar di daerah Kebon Sirih, Jakarta.
Gita membuka buku ini dengan tulisan di bagian sampul belakang: "Surealisme adalah hal yang paling logis yang bisa ditemui ketika orang berhadapan dengan cinta [...] kau terjatuh di dunia yang sama sekali tidak kau mengerti." Ketidakmengertian Gita dalam cinta yang serba tak logis dan paradoksikal ini menggemakan kembali ratapan Werther muda tentang Lotte dalam karya Goethe, katanya, “Kadang-kadang aku tidak mengerti bagaimana orang lain bisa mencintainya, dan boleh mencintainya, sedangkan aku pun juga mencintainya segenap jiwaku, begitu kuat, begitu penuh, tidak memahami apa-apa, tidak mengetahui apa-apa, dan tidak mempunyai apa-apa selain dia!" Orang yang mencinta secara dahsyat tentu pernah merasakan hal yang seperti ini, sebuah cinta yang melukai namun menciptakan adiksi. Kegagalannya menghasilkan kegetiran dan kemarahan yang serupa badai dalam bentuk mental dan emosional, meninggalkan manusia-manusia yang pecah dan remuk. Butuh usaha lebih bagi beberapa orang untuk bangkit dari bentuknya yang tinggal puing. Ada yang melakukan solo trip ribuan kilometer hanya untuk membangun kembali kota hatinya, ada juga yang menulis seperti Gita ini. Dan lewat buku ini Gita tidak sedang mencari permakluman (dan rasanya memang tidak perlu) terhadap kelakuan Sisifean ini, karena katanya (kepada si pujaan hati – mari kita sebut si Perempuan), "Tentu kau boleh menertawai golongan orang macam itu." Jika saja Werther muda mengenal Gita, mungkin ia akan berkata padanya, "Sind wir nicht alle Trunkene und Wahnsinnige?"[2]
Sebuah buku sekali tenggak, "Tentang Cerita..." hanya sepanjang 101 halaman terdiri atas 18 fragmen yang berbentuk mirip surat-surat tak terkirim. Tidak ada surat yang terlalu panjang, kebanyakan terdiri dari 4-5 paragraf berisi 4-5 kalimat yang ringkas pula. Bahkan ada satu entri (#5) yang hanya terdiri dari satu paragraf. Di bagian akhir buku ini, terdapat testimoni-testimoni dari teman-teman terdekat Gita yang kurang lebih mengetahui hubungan mereka berdua. Saya pun ikut menulis testimoni di situ (tetapi malah seperti tahi cicak kering di buku yang sudah lama tidak Anda baca: mengganggu).
Gita menulis buku ini dengan dengan konstruksi yang prosaik nan minimalis. Isinya berupa observasi momen-ke-momen seperti yang biasa Anda ceritakan pada kekasih lewat telepon. Dalam entri #2, misalnya, Gita bertutur tentang pekerjaannya dan uraian tugasnya yang baru di seksi yang baru, juga tentang kesialannya gara-gara seorang pegawai yang tidak teliti membuat dia harus mengerjakan ulang semuanya. Di entri selanjutnya, Gita berbicara tentang syukuran seorang pegawai temannya satu kantor atas kesembuhan anaknya yang baru saja keluar dari rumah sakit. Yang lain bercerita tentang arisan keluarga, perjalanannya ke Kuala Tungkal (beserta kondisi penempatan di daerah-daerah terpencil di luar Jawa), menonton film di mall, serta cerita tentang wayang, puisi Wiji Thukul, dan novel lama Murakami Haruki. Yang terpendek, #5, malah hampir-hampir puisi. Jika boleh saya beri enjambemen asal-asalan, maka ia akan terbaca seperti ini:
Pukul tiga pagi,
kurang sepuluh menit
Dan aku hanya ingin bilang bahwa
aku
merindukanmu.
Tak lupa, seperti biasa, ia menyelipkan kalimat-kalimat quotable khas Gita seperti, “Ingatan bisa dimanipulasi. Rekam jejak tidak” atau “Melihatmu di masa kini adalah mengekalkan sebuah kesedihan.”
Pada paragraf-paragraf akhir fragmennya Gita dengan halus memutar kisah kehidupannya sehari-hari menjadi sebuah quasi-monolog yang gelisah, murung, dan penuh frustasi. Seperti pantun, setiap fragmennya mempunyai “sampiran” berupa cerita-cerita yang banal. Wajah adik-adik kelasnya yang muram karena meninggalkan keluarga demi bekerja di tempat yang jauh menjadi ilustrasi kemuramannya yang ditinggalkan oleh si Perempuan. Membaca buku Murakami menjadi ilustrasi tentang buku, sebagai sebuah analogi kehidupan: sesuatu yang punya akhir, sesuatu yang bisa dilanjutkan dengan buku (baca: kehidupan) yang baru. Gita seperti membuat lukisan realis alih-alih - seperti yang diklaimnya sendiri - surealis. Tidak dalam simbolisme yang kabur, namun dalam jelujuran narasi yang remeh-temeh.
Yang menarik, Gita pun menggunakan tulisannya sebagai wadah untuk menggugat modernitas dan ekses negatifnya. Misal ketika dia sedang menginap di hotel ber-AC, dan lantas mengingat masih ada orang yang tidak berpunya. Atau saat ia tertampar oleh puisi Wiji Thukul tentang keegoisan yang tersirat dari kebiasaan bibliofilik yang ia punyai. Bahkan dalam satu fragmen, kamerad Gita mengajak Si Perempuan untuk ikut berpikir sejenak mengenai kondisi tanah di Jambi yang menjadi gersang karena dioverekspoitasi oleh petani kelapa sawit, “Untuk kasus ini, menurutmu siapa yang benar-benar peduli? Pemerintah yang kerjaannya hanya berebut kekuasaan? Perusahaan yang hanya memikirkan soal cara memperoleh uang sebanyak-banyaknya? Atau penduduk yang bermodal kecil dan minim edukasi?” Mirip sekali dengan kader muda sebuah partai kiri yang sedang mengajak pacarnya diskusi. Sayangnya bagi Gita, ajakan diskusi ini nampaknya hanya memantul ke tembok.
Gita Wiryawan bisa dibilang adalah orang yang secara tidak langsung mengajari saya menulis. Saya tentu sudah memperhatikan tulisan-tulisan dia sejak lama, dan bagi saya buku semi-otobiografikal ini memberi kesan ketergesaan dalam penggarapannya. Kata-katanya tidak setajam tulisan-tulisan dia di blog. Pemilihan diksi khas Gita juga tampil sangat minimal, dan seandainya tidak ada sama sekali, maka membaca buku ini seperti membaca buku diari seorang anak SMA atau buku Raditya Dika. [3] Bukan salah Gita tentu saja. Saya lebih-lebih tidak mungkin menyalahkan editornya, Prima Sulistya, yang adalah salah satu editor muda par excellence dan paling cermat di negeri ini. Mungkin gaya penulisan curhat seperti ini bukanlah gaya yang bisa mengeluarkan potensi menulis Gita secara penuh.
Sesenang-senangnya saya mendapatkan buku gratis, apalagi tulisan seorang kawan sendiri, tentu saya berharap yang terbaik baginya. Ya, saya berharap tidak akan muncul sekuel "Tentang Cerita yang Belum Kuceritakan Kepadamu". Juga semoga tidak akan muncul perempuan-perempuan yang menghancurkan hati Gita Wiryawan di masa depan. Tak peduli kata Nuran Wibisono, seorang pengamat musik kawakan Indonesia, bahwa “Kesedihan adalah sesuatu yang seksi.” Tak peduli darinya lahir beribu paragraf dan bait puisi.
I wish you way more than luck for your future endeavors, Gita.
***
[1] Lawan kata dari euangelion yang berarti kabar baik (eu- berarti baik). Secara literal dysangelion berarti kabar buruk.
[2] "Bukankah kita semua pemabuk dan orang gila?"
[3] Sang penulis, Gita Wiryawan, pun menertawakan bukunya sendiri ketika kami bertemu dan minum-minum Jumat malam lalu di sebuah bar di daerah Kebon Sirih, Jakarta.
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